Year 2015 in View

Normally we tend to start a new year with Resolutions and this is what I will attempt to do here to capture and hopefully look back at this year end, insya-Allah.

For myself, my hopes and planning for year 2015 would be:
1. To be a good and loving mother for my 3 daughters and 2 sons - to yell less, to understand more, to laugh and be with them at any important event which they require my presents
2. To be a good and loving wife to my husband - to reduce my temper, to communicate and increase tolerance. Thanks Dearest for loving me unconditionally all these 16 years without ever giving up that one day I will change for the better.
3. To be a better daughter to my mum - to call, visit and bring her over more often. This would be my challenge as I am not close to mum since small. We always had our differences in thoughts and views and I still feel today that sometimes my mum do not truly see me for the woman I have become. Then again it could be just my imagination as we are often more critical of ourselves than others really are.
4. To start my own business - this is my biggest challenge and worry this year as I would like to make a start towards financial independence. I do love what I do; after 16 years in my profession I have grown to love my job and the work I do. However in the long run, with the children growing up and requiring more of my attention and attendance, my work will not enable me to spend as much time as I want with them. So I have to think of a change; indeed a change is a scary thing and even more scarier for a girl like me who likes to have control over every single thing.

Update to this list:
5. To learn to manage my stress better aka to yell less to my beloved children even if they do test the limit sometimes. Target is to limit to 1 yell incident per month (take a deep breath on this pledge)

So I will start with this 4 resolutions first and see whether I can meet my own expectation by year end. Wish me luck and pray for me too.

Important milestones this year too for us as family:

1. Hasanah will be taking her iGCSE this year in May/Jun. I pray that she will be healthy and do well in her exams. I will try to support her as much as I can.

2. Aliyah will be taking her JLSA and UPSR exams this year. Good luck my baby girl! You can do it and I will pray for your success.

3. Husband and I have made appeal to request for places to perform our Hajj this year. We have registered for Hajj pilgrimage since year 2002 and have missed few window of opportunities since then. I pray with Allah's Rahim and Rahman that may we have the chance to go for Hajj this year. Please pray for us too. My heart yearns to go to Mekah and see the Kaabah in person again; truly a magical peaceful feeling. It's is as if the sky above the Kaabah can see directly to the heavens, subhanallah.

Here to 2015 resolution. May Allah grant us the knowledge and patience to succeed. Ameen.

Till next time, insya-Allah