Yesterday I went with Hasanah to KL Convention Centre to check out the Star Education fair. There were plenty of booths on display from various learning institution and there were also talks from representatives from various learning discipline.
We arrived in the late afternoon after parting with Hubby who is off to Bangalore for 4 days; leaving me to handle four schooling children by my own hmmmm. Anyway Hasanah and I sat through the talks on Exploring Medicine, Dentistry and Pharmacy professions. The medicine talk was quite good and informative about preparations to be made to make it to the limited and highly coveted Medical course. While the Dentistry Professor from IMU was definitely not sugar coating her talk . It was a contrast to the lecturer who gave the same talk during IMU open day last week. That lady that give that talk came across as more caring and living up to the first and foremost reason why one would choose to pursue healthcare profession i.e. "Desire to serve other people and help make their lives better"
I am attending these talks, open days and searching up on scholarship and loans facilities available to try to help make some plans for Hasanah. At 15 years old, She doesn't really know what she would like to do yet. Her ambitions ranges from working with National Geographic to film animal movies, being a vet (eventhough she is asthmatic and extremely allergic to cats fur).
This is a contrast to myself because back then at 15 years old, I have already decided that I will try to be a doctor. Coming from a family who is not well off, I had already known then that education is my way out of the life difficulty that I was born into. I was also passionate about working with people especially children and old people, by being a doctor I would be able to help all these people. Seeing my old grandparents always being sick and getting mediocre medical care also burns my ambition. In addition, I wanted to contribute to increasing the numbers of Iban doctors in Sarawak. I had also imagined myself working with Doctors Without Borders- an organisation of Doctors that help to treat patients regardless of nationalities, countries. That would be just heaven!
But me doing a doctor was not meant to be. I didn't meet the requirement on grades for Biology and Add Maths SPM subjects. Later thanks to Allah, I was offered an full scholarship to study overseas but it was not for doing medicine. Coming from a poor family who had no means whatsoever to finance my university education, I realised my circumstances and accepted the good offer; thus did let go of my childhood dream. I was already independent during my secondary school years. At 17 years old, I learnt the lessons to arrange for my own further education and passport applications and went for my medical checks for myself.
I knew then that I want to improve myself and to live a better life in the future for myself. So despite the difficulties in my early life, alhamdulillah I did have the opportunity to go overseas, completed my degree education, met a wonderful boy who now is my dearest husband, make other lifelong friends and later provided financial support to my parents. I have come to terms with what I am capable of, I am willing to work towards achieving my dreams. If that was then interpreted as stubbornness to my parents just be cause of my go-getter attitude, I have learnt to accept their indifferences and try to not let it matter.
Digressing too far from my original intention of Hasanah's next major steps, it would be no secret here of my desire and hope that she would be interested in either medicine and dentistry. Especially dentistry because that can her the work-life balance that she needs and she can also help with the society. I can imagine the future Mercy Malaysia mission with doctors and dentist giving their services to victims wherever they are needed.
However that would be imposing my dream upon her dream. I know enough to, in my heart, to let her to be free to dream her own dream so that she does not live a life of regrets and what ifs and lookback. As her mum, I will continuously pray and continuously support her in whatever she finally chooses (let's hope that it will be dentistry...hehehe still hoping here as you can see). May Allah help to grant you all your wishes and hope Hasanah.
Ultimately, no normal parents ever wish for anything bad for their children, we all have the best intention for them in our hearts. What we can do better from our previous parents generation, is to share our intentions with them and show more of our love and support to our children. For we live our life today is so that their tomorrow will be much much better.
Till next time, insya Allah.
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