“Hasrat yang tak didapat adalah nikmat yang paling padat”
~A. Samad Said, 1976~
Very recently I had to face a certain disappointing situation work related. The exact nature I shall not divulge further as I see it as one important life's lesson to be learnt and remembered. It was a difficult situation and I am heartbroken, upset, angry and felt very much victimised.
What did I learnt ?
That in my opinion, the biggest sin of all is lying. Lying destroys whatever credibility and standard self respect one may have for another.
That racism is, although no longer practised openly, is still very much prevalent in some people's hearts and minds.
That although one may advocate that fair opportunity for all and diversity & inclusiveness is very much respected, favouritism and sameness are still governing the decisions made.
Being lied to and victimised due to being who I am is very painful and damaging to the self esteem. I have accepted that there is nothing I can do as it has happened and can't be undone. I believe it has been fated for me and pray to ALLAH that HE give me the strength and courage to continue on this journey.
For my faith to remain steadfast despite the odds that seems to be so against me now. This has not been easy. And as for hope...
Hope that justice will prevail in the end and that those responsible will receive their deserving returns one day. Hoping for this to be much sooner than later.
Hope that other better opportunities will be open to me and may my luck be better next time. I recall a saying “ When one door closed, another will open, just don't spend too long looking at the closed one “. So other doors, please open for me.
Hope that with time, this pain in my heart will lessen. To forget, I don't wish to forget as this lesson in trust is very important. To forgive, at this moment, no.
Insya-ALLAH.
Please hope for and with me. Thank you.
Again till next time, insya-ALLAH.
